I am in Love (Or am I?)!

I am in love!

I am in love with a man whom I loved at first sight.

I am in love!

Whose glimpses once skipped my heartbeat.

I am in love with such a man,

with whom love now feels like a burden.

I am in love with such a man,

where limitations and boundaries are the truth.

I am in love with such a man,

with whom living together is no longer a dream.

I am in love with such a man,

loving whom now feels like guilt and regret.

Time flies,

time changes.

The untold stories now feel like rocks on my heart.

The unaddressed emotions are trapped and burning inside.

The ashes of those emotions remain within,

unwilling to fade away.

I am in love with a man

with whom my self no longer feels secure,

with whom I hesitate to smile.

I am in love with a man

whose presence and absence both feel the same.

I am in love with a man

whose love comes with terms and conditions,

whose love is untraceable—unless I earn something.

I am in love with a man- where love comes but with loneliness and hesitation!

My heart looks for nobody when in pain!

I am in love with such a man...

Or maybe I am not.

Perhaps this is just a trapped emotion,

smiling from the outside,

not ready to feel the detachment.

I don’t know

if I am in love with anybody now.